Getting depressed while pregnant

I hate feeling this way, I can't never make anyone happy. I'm not going to do anything behind someone back. My boyfriend want me to talk to his parents and yesterday my stepmom said don't that they need to talk to him first before anything. If I tell him that they said I can't see his parents because they want to speak to him, he just going to get mad and say why I always listen to them. I know I'm 20 but I am the pregnant one and he should respond to them first. I get stressed really easy and cry and it's really hard when I'm with him to cry cause I always try to be strong and I just don't feel like crying in front of him. I even lie to them about when I found out I was pregnant. They saw the ultrasound I show them and they just don't understand I didn't know how to tell them. Now my stepmom said how can she trust me. I needed time. I was scared on how they were going to react. Guess they will never understand how I felt.

So much stress with they not trusting me, this damn baby shower, how they want to talk to him but I know he just going to throw me under the bus😞. He even said he can't lie. I just want them to stop being disappointed in me. I'm getting more depressed by the minute and that what they don't understand