Pcos regular periods now missed nearly 2 months

Hi ladies,im new to all this discussion between us women,im 20 years old and have been trying for a baby with my boyfriend since i was 18 but as i have pcos (diagnosed at 16 😔) obviously its going to be very difficult at the moment were just enjoying life but hoping everytime weve done the deed that it may happen but as always i come on my p,but i didnt have my p last month and i havent had it this month yet and i usually have it at the start,i dont want to take a test as it breaks my heart everytime i see negative 😔 so ladies has anyone else been in my position witb pcos and had regular p and then missed it and turns out there pregnant or is it my pcos doing its job?

Thankyou in advance