first pregnancy miscarriage

I am not one to ever post publicly to strangers. However, right now my emotions are running high, and I am the only sibling (out of 3 girls) to experience miscarriage, so my sister's just do not understand. As a military wife, my time with my husband is very limited at times. Since he chose a careerfield change (in order to be able to start a family), we have been apart the majority of this year due to training. But from the end of June to mid July, we were able to start TTC. Our first month trying was a success! Last Saturday, I found I would was 5 weeks pregnant with our first baby. But on Wednesday, I started spotting. I knew light spotting was common in the first few weeks, but called my doc anyway for reassurance. 10min after hanging up with the nurse, I started to bleed heavily. I rushed to the hospital to my doc for immediate bloodwork and my hcg levels were extremely low. The next day, I continued to bleed, and on Friday, my follow up bloodwork confirmed miscarriage. My levels were almost at zero. I feel as if I've been robbed of that first pregnancy excitement. I know there are some of you out there who have experienced much much worse. And even though this has taken an emotional toll on me, I am thankful it happened so early on rather than later down the road. But it is especially difficult when my husband and I are thousands of miles apart and I have had to do this alone. I have had to remove myself from social media due to 4 pregnancy announcements just since Thursday. I cant see them without breaking down. Because my body was able to naturally do it's thing without needing a D&C;, I have already been cleared to start TTC as soon as I want. I wanted a baby so bad, but I didn't realize just HOW bad until now. We plan on trying again right away, even though that means flying me out to where he is for a week. I want to be pregnant by the time he deploys in the fall so that he will be home for the birth and not have to go back overseas right after. The joy of my first pregnancy has already been ripped away from me, and I am so terrified that it will happen again.