Today makes the 2nd day since we lost what was going to be our 4th child. It's the first time I have ever experienced anything like this. On top of everything we are staying with in laws and I feel like I can't grieve like I want too because we never told them about the pregnancy. We knew telling them that they would respond negative and we can't deal with that on top of the loss of our child. Why is this so hard? I feel like when our child passed it took a piece of me with it to heaven. I'm not asking for sympathy but I would love some prayers. With the childhood I had I grew up teaching myself not to let things bring me down and to always stay positive but if anything this is one thing that brought me down. I try so hard to look at it in a positive way because I know God had a reason but it's hard sometimes. Love to all those who have lost a child and love to all of those having one. If anything this experience makes me hug and love my children even tighter and more than I've hugged and loved them before❤️❤️❤️ Sorry for the long post I needed to let some of this pain out.