And so, the testing begins.

I found out 2 weeks ago on 21st July after constant check up scans, I lost baby at 8 weeks, I went the medication assisted route again as I couldn't handle all the symptoms, and preferred handling the situation rather than dwelling on it, unfortunately loss never becomes real until the process starts and I knew it was no good sitting there lying to myself. I was signed off of work and watched every programme, advert, film along side real life situations relating to pregnancy and baby's and that's the hardest part. it's my third loss so I was asked if I wanted to go through with recurrent miscarriage testing, I said yes. Today is the day I've been waiting for, I'm still going through the last part of my miscarriage but I can put in for all the tests today, so soon ill find out what sort of thing it actually involves, what ill need to do and go through, and finally, hopefully some results. I can't deny I'm petrified of the results, I'm 24 and the last thing I want to be told is I can't have children or my chances are slim; I can conceive, that's not the problem, I just can't seem to hold a pregnancy past 11 weeks, after going over this site and Google and hunting for any form of advice, There's multiple reasons, there are simpler workable reasons, and there are not so great scenarios. I just want answers now, because at the moment I'm gripping on to the idea of being able to hold my own baby one day, and if that's not going to be an easy journey I need to know so I can find a way to cope... Looking for every form of luck I can, my partner and I are hoping to start trying to conceive again soon, and hopefully be successful. Baby dust to all you ladies out there struggling, and my condolences and Luck to any mummies whose baby's have wings, here's hoping they bring us strength ❤👼🙏👼❤