Angry, hurt and a load mixed emotions

I'm so happy and excited for my cousin/sis but I'm also so angry at her for what she did.

My cousin got engaged this past Monday but it's something we've known it was gonna happen for a year and we've talked talk it so many times she even told me multiple times that I was gonna be her maid of honor and I had even started planning stuff for when the time came for the engagement and wedding we could get something done but this Wednesday she goes on Facebook live and asked this girl that I have no clue who she is to be her maid of honor and she didn't bother telling me anything.

Then she calls me last night to tell me if I could be a bridesmaid, it's like 1st she replaces me and now she degrades me, she hasn't even apologized or explained anything to me on why she did that. Oh and I'm paying for major of the wedding.

Ugh I'm so mixed emotions!!!!