I just...want to cry...all the time...😓

I'm getting married in 8 days...8...more....days....

But we asked for some help getting stuff together because we're really young and not sure how it all works and things got way out of hand. We wanted a small quit wedding (especially me. I have really bad anxiety. Especially with people). We just wanted to say our simple vows and then hang out and maybe play some football or something. But now we have a crazy schedule and everything's a little more traditional...I'm worried that I'm totally gonna hate every second of it...am I awful? I know we asked for help...but we didn't know how to stand up for ourselves through the pressuring and mocking and scoffs and surprised faces when we said we didn't want to go traditional...and now our whole wedding has practically been planned for us and I'm nothing but overwhelmed....

Sorry for venting....but my whole family and all my friends live elsewhere...I don't have anyone here but my fiancé....