losing my virginity

I just lost my virginity tonight and I'm kind of young and it was with a guy that is my friend with benefits and it's like I don't want him to be more than that and neither does he so we are on the same page about everything but I'm like I can't talk to my close friend because that's his doinkey (a person that gave him head) does this make me the worst person ever? please don't judge me this is the one place I could come to and hope not to be judged