okay so this guy, ill adress him by N. we were dating for a few months and he made me so happy. then at the beginning of august, he broke up with me because he needed time to find himself which i respect and i understand one hundred percent. he admits that he still has feelings for me, and i admit i have feelings for him as well. so N took my virginity when we first started dating, and he wasnt a virgin whenever he took it. and im questioning whether or not i was special to him, if he was just using me for my virginity and then left shortly after. i just dont know how to feel about the situation and im sad, confused and mad and all of these other emotions combined and i feel like throwing up.