so fed up

I feel the need to vent cause I'm crazy hormonal and exhausted rn... I am seriously so very happy for everyone who falls pregnant. At the same time tho its so disheartening getting bfn after bfn. I wish i could be one of those ladies who get a bfp before af is due but im not. I have every early pregnancy symptom going atm and me and my dh are 98% sure this is our month but the time is going so slowly and i get so down every morning i get a bfn! I just want to know because if im not pregnant then i must be ill and need to see dr! Sorry for the negative rant