I Don't know what to believe/do


I'm almost 19 and a sophomore in college. I've never even been kissed or touched or anything. Anyways, I really want a guy in my life. For so long I've wanted something special, or I think I still do. Since I've never done really anything, part of me wants to do some of those things with a guy so I feel more confident or less insecure. Sounds terrible. Anyways, i guess I just wondered what people's advice would be for my situation; should I hookup with a guy? Friends with benefits?