Abortion may only be the way..

I'm devastated. I'm 20 with a 14 month old, he's my absolute world. He's very poorly, we spend most his life living in hospital and having very serious surgeries (next op next week) he's peg and tube fed as well so it is not easy. I'm in a very unhappy and unhealthy relationship with my sons dad and he'll never change, prison and aggression is just in his nature but I want what's best for my son and now at his age he understands. His dad shouted and called me names today and my son cuddled me as he knew I was upset that's not ok and I'm planning on ending this now!

But I'm 10 weeks pregnant I was over the moon to begin with but no I don't think I can do this. Bring another child into a broken family and it'll spend most of its time with family because I'll always be at my sons bed side in hospital it's just not fair. But I'm so scared about abortion and what they do. I want the baby to not be hurt and happen quickly. This breaks my heart so much!