I have been with my husband for 10 years, married for 3. In the last few months, he has really been pulling away from me and becoming very distant and I have been feeling very lonely and depressed because of it. When I asked him about it- he told me it was in my head and that if I wasn't happy in the relationship, then I should see a therapist. I started going to a therapist and reading marriage books and trying to figure out why things were so off. We weren't talking like we used to, he was barely touching me, and he had become cold and distant. Things continued to get worse and I was increasingly anxious and depressed to the point that my hair started falling out and I was missing periods. I love him so very much and I knew that if I worked hard enough that we could make it through anything. But shockingly, this last week he told me I should move out of our house and find an apartment so that I could figure out how to be happy. Sunday night, before I went to sign a lease to an apartment, I had a gut feeling that I should do some digging to find out the reason behind his coldness. I went through his email- and that's when I found his emails he had been aggressively sending to dozens of women. I found out he had been on two different dating sites- Ashley Madison and one other. I saw all the vulgar things he had been saying to women over the past couple months, and when and where he wanted to meet up with them. I confronted him that night and he admitted to sleeping with women. He blamed me for them, he said he felt that since I brought up the issues in our relationship that he was worried I would leave him- so he acted out. I felt really terrible.... until I dug deeper and found that he had been on these dating websites since 2010- the last 7 years of our relationship!!! I am completely at a loss right now. The man I married, the man I love and spent my life with, the man I thought was my everything- is just a lie. I do not know how I am going to get through this- the pain I feel is so unbearable and I can not believe he is capable of this. Please send prayers my way. I need guidance in this next stage of my life, because I will have to do it alone.

**UPDATE 10/27***

We are in the process of selling the home we bought and fixed up together. He took one of our dogs to the new place he is living, and we are filing for divorce. It has been absolute hell these past two months if I’m being honest. My husband was my whole world, everyone who knows me knows how in love I was with him. And when something like this happens, it’s not like that love vanishes but it just feels as though something inside me has died. It honestly feels like a death, I am grieving a person who is still alive and also all the memories we had together are tainted. It is so very painful. We had our 3 year wedding anniversary on October 3rd and I spent the day crying and alone- my heart is so broken. I have told most of my friends and my family. I have been seeing a therapist, I’m going to the gym, journaling, I joined a church choir, I started a Bible study, I’m going dancing, doing art classes, and just trying to get out of my head for a bit. But the pain is there, every single day. I am the most depressed at night, where my mind wonders and his absence is missed the most. I have dreams about him and wake up reaching for him in the bed to only remember what had happened. I worry that I will never love anyone as much as I’ve loved him. I worry that I will feel this way forever. And my future is so very fuzzy. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I’m hoping that there is light at the end of this tunnel.