Can not decide wether to abort or not.

EDIT *** thank you for your comments. Some have definitely given me something to think about. Unfortunately where I live adoption is not easy. A baby must go into foster care/social services and doesn't go straight to an adopting family. Adoption usually does not occur until 6 months to 2 years of age. Once a family is found it can still be many years until the baby is placed with them. I have looked into this and decided it is not for me. I hope everyone hoping to adopt has an easier time than this because it seems very unreasonable. I'm still unsure about wether to keep the baby or have an abortion-but it will be one or the other. I'm speaking to a counselor today and will take it from there. Thanks again.

I'm 35, in a long term relationship, no children and 10 weeks pregnant. We have never wanted children, love our current lives and I have no maternal instincts. Recently we started talking about having a baby as time is "running out" but still admitting no real desire. I went of the pill and fell pregnant quickly. 10 weeks pregnant and we still both don't "want" a baby or anything to change. We have discussed abortion (which I have always felt ok about). The thing that stops us from making that appointment is that this would most likely mean we would never have a child and worried it's something we may regret in the future. I know this is a decision only we can make but have felt torn 60/40 (leaning more towards an abortion) so the past few weeks. I was even thinking about waiting for the 12 week scan to check for chromosomal abnormalities to see if this helps make a decision any easier. This alone worries me as I think if something was wrong it would be a relief as it was make this choice much easier (I would get an abortion). While I'm still so unsure I don't want to do anything and guess I'm looking for any words of wisdom someone may be able to offer. Thanks for reading and anything you might have to say.