I'm 19 yrs old.

I'm an introvert.

I'm bipolar.

I have low self esteem.

I'm not afraid to admit these things but they seem to have become a problem.

I lock my self out of any thing social because I have this feeling where no one likes me or wants to be around me.

I only talk to one other person other than my mother which is my boyfriend legit only have two contacts on my phone.

the only time I leave the house is to either go by my bf ( well dont get me wrong he takes me out from time to time but he know how I feel about being around a lot of ppl) or church ( I always make sure I find the bench with less ppl on it to sit well they move any ways so its a win win ).

it's not healthy I know to live like this

to be bottled away from ppl to live in constant fear of what ppl would think of me.

I have been bullied from primary to high school about my looks this plays a big rule in why i am the way I am today .

I hardly take pictures of my self and when I do I feel so self conscious that I take them down , I don't have social media any more , deleted it right after high school graduation.

you must be wondering why did I post this wasting ppls time thinking any one would want to read this well the first step of helping your self is admitting you have a problem