I have been married for 2.5 years, but together for 10. He was my best friend, my everything - then our world turned upside down. A few months ago he started pushing me away. He was going out every night and spending all weekend away from home - totally out of character. One day, when he was 3 hours late from when he said he was coming home, I checked find my iPhone. He was not where he said he was going and made up lie after lie. A week later he broke down and told me everything. He hadn't been happy for a few months and confided in a young girl at work. He was hanging out with her and promises they are just friends. He asked me if I had ever used find my iPhone before and I lied. I had checked up on him previously-- he has been in two motorcycle accidents and cheated on my three times. I don't feel like I should be able to check on him, it just gave me peace of mind. He checked all my text messages and after my mom had his back for weeks she finally told me I needed to check his bank statements since he had been going out every single night. He is so mad at my mom and says he will never talk to her again. We have gone to counseling and he has since stopped. I am still going alone. I love him so much and everything has happened so fast. I don't know what to do. He says he wants a divorce since I checked up on him and I said I wanted one since I don't deserve this treatment. I am worth more. Why can't I pull the trigger?!?