I'm almost 19 and I finally lost my virginity the other night..😳❤️

My boyfriend and I have been talking since I was 16 going on 17, and he was 18 at the time.👫 We went through the "talking stage" 6 months before we finally made it official.💑 The only thing that made our relationship not as "normal" as most is that we were in an LDR (Long Distance Relationship).✈️🌎 We went through our ups😄 and downs😡 and made it through them and always made things work even when it was hard💖 because in our relationship we're each other's best friends and love each other.💑 We made sure we gave each other attention 100x more than normal relationships because in LDR's you can't give each other physical attention so we would try to make up for what we couldn't do...💕 and yes this includes a lot of phone sex and "FaceTime F*cking"🤳🏾 lmfao and I love how we always made it work. After almost 2 years of us talking something came up and he was able to move out here on his own sooner than we thought.👱🏽✈️🌎 I caught an uber with my friend all the way to LAX🛬 to pick him up🏎💨 I dressed up the best I could💃🏾 because I was so excited to finally see the person I fell in love with and have been waiting to see for almost 2 YEARS❣️💏 When I saw him I felt like I was dreaming.😍 We spent so much time together and we're SUPER Sexually attracted to each other.🔥 I catch him staring at me sometimes😍 and he makes me feel so beautiful and sometimes I don't realize I'm staring at him and I get super emotional LMAO. I'm so happy.. I feel like I'm in a movie or something wth?!😂🤦🏾‍♀️ After almost a week of him getting here we finally got a room... I was so ready and so scared and nervous lol because I'm not gonna lie.. my boyfriend is FAR from small!🤦🏾‍♀️😭🍆 We gave each oral👅🍆🐱 a few times before that this week but this time.. IT WAS ABOUT TO GO DOWWWN! lol I am not gonna lie I kept running😭😂🏃🏾‍♀️💨 at one point he had to really pin my little ass down LMFAOOOOO I was making it so difficult I was all crying and sh*t😭😂 HE BARELY PUT THE TIP IN AND I WAS CRYING WTF?!😭😭💀 We literally tried 4 different positions before we could finally get it in..🤦🏾‍♀️ Sadly the winner #5 is that one when he's standing up and picks me up and I'm holding on to him while he thrusts. Jesus, he went in front of the mirror too. I was queefing so loud and was so embarrassed🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ lol but he liked it.😳 It🍆 hurt so much, we tried missionary.. How did I start from one side of the bed and end up at the end of the other side?? >>>>🏃🏾‍♀️💨<<<< LMAO but he held me down tight and I remember looking up at him and he'd look at me in my eyes😍 or look down at my body or just concentrate on thrusting and kiss my forehead or lips or anywhere😂😍 And I was just so in love I felt like I was dreaming. Next thing I know I'm calling him "daddy" and talking dirty and asking him to keep going. It was weird even though it hurt like hell it felt good and I was so aroused.💦 (And yes we used a condom btw)💪🏾 I remember us sweating like crazy and every time he thrusted I felt it in my lower stomach area.😳 At one point he stopped while it was still in me and laid on me breathing and sweating hard lol it was so adorable to me.😍 Every time he'd first put it back in it would hurt like hell and I continued to tense up and run and cry😭 lmao but at one point I was trying to not run and tense up anymore. When I saw it was actually in there and saw him thrust I melted😳😍 especially because I felt it in my stomach again.😳😳 I was trying to stay quiet but I kept F*cking moaning loud as hell!😭 And I queefed a few more times too in a few other positions.🤦🏾‍♀️ After we finished I just remember being stuck for a while like "wow.. that just really happened.."😳💭LMAO! I was also wondering why I wasn't bleeding.. later when I went home and (TMI) peed I saw light blood spotting in the toilet🚽 and a little on my TP.. Then I was like, "OH F*CK I REALLY DID LOSE IT IM NOT DREAMING!!"😭😂 my legs hurt like hell and I was SO exhausted. All I wanted to do is take a shower🛀🏾 and go to sleep🛌 at that point!😂❤️ Sorry for making this story so long❣️🤦🏾‍♀️😭😂

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