Realizing I'm more than my fertility

Sorry it's a tad long!! This is my second cycle of doing clomid on top of meds to lower my high prolactin levels which keeps me from ovulating on my own. Lately, I feel all I can do is obsess over my fertile window and started having sex on CD 8. I work in labor and delivery and have birthday parties everyday I work! I assisted in an emergency cesarean section the other day where baby had no heart beat when he initially came out.... my heart dropped into the pit of my stomach. This is when I wanted to fall to my knees and prayed so hard for peace within myself and know it'll happen for me when timing is right. I still ask myself, were we fast enough? What else could we have done?! But in reality mom wasn't even fully intubated before we had that baby out. Y'all, that was less than a minute till baby was out... less than 6 minutes from patients room to OR to baby being out. My heart was pounding. All I could hear was my heavy breathing and fought every tear threatening to emerge.

I am more than my fertility... I am a wife, a daughter, a sister, cousin, aunt... and so much more. Such an eye opening and humbling experience to help save a babies life makes me grateful for mine. I was once in the same boat as that baby 26 years ago.... I'm now standing and thriving.

Please don't stress mommas, it'll happen for you, for us one day. Hold your family tighter and those babies even closer. The dishes can wait... hold them one more night till they fall asleep.

I'm nowhere near religious by any means but god bless ❤️

Remember smile and be blessed you woke up another day ❤️❤️❤️

I just realized how much I've become wrapped up in my own little world of fertility issues to the point it consumes me. I don't want to forget what is important and what's right in front of me.