Miscarriage

I wasn't trying to get pregnant at all before this. I'm currently going through a miscarriage though. I'm no longer dating the guy who would have been the father. I haven't told him about it and I don't want to. At the time he said he wanted a good relationship with no sexual stuff in it but he would always start stuff and I thought at the time that if I went with it that it would make him feel happier, or something. We didn't have full vaginal intercourse but It got really close. I then didn't have my period for a couple of weeks and I didn't think anything of it. We broke it off because he said the only thing that happened in our relationship was sexual but he would always start it. It infuriated me because I tried so hard to do other things. So I stopped talking to him. I did a lot of yardwork in the heat and tried to induce my period with home remedies and it just wouldn't work. I couldn't believe I could be pregnant at all. Then I took a pregnancy test and it was negative so I didn't think nothing of it, but I had very terrible abdomen pains. Then on last Thursday I started feeling pains worse than anything I felt before. I didn't want to eat and my abdomen hurt so bad and all I wanted to do was sleep. Then o Friday I started bleeding black blood. I thought maybe it was just old but it got worse and then I looked down and saw what looked to be a embryo/fetus, it freaked me out so badly. I'm still in a pain and I'm still bleeding. I don't know how to feel. I'm so upset and confused.