Babysitter anxiety

J.

Has anyone else gone through an anxiety phase when it comes to someone watching your baby? It freaks me out so much to even trust family. Not really trust I guess, because I do trust them in a way i know they won't do anything harmful but just idk. I had one incident with my MIL where because of that I feel like I never again want anyone else with my child. Especially since he tends to be a little colicky at times. It just sucks because I want a night with my husband. I just want a nice dinner without our LO. Our anniversary is coming up and I'm thinking about doing a nice movie date for us at home once baby goes down to sleep because of the fact I just can't pull myself to be comfortable with leaving him with someone else again. Ugh.