I have been dating this boy for a year and 7 months. I found out he has talked with and borderline sexted other girls while we have been together. He didn't physically cheat but it obviously still hurts. What do they have I don't? Why did he do it? What's so special about her? Like it's just emotionally exhausting.

(Confession: I have semi stalked the girls I know he's talked to and like analyze every post on social media.... Please tell me I'm not the only one.)

How do you throw away all that time? The family? The friends? The memories? And how can you break up when somehow you still love them despite all they've done to you?