hi guys! alright so i havent really been feeling... great, i guess. i act happy because what else is there to do, right? but honestly i think about suicide a lot. i've told my dad about it, but he doesn't really know the full extent.

i havent been feeling motivated to do anything. i can't eat because theres a constant pang in my stomach that occurs whenever i even think about eating. i have a past of self harm and seeking attention, so i'm worried it may just be me seeking attention or something worse. what should i do? i'm confused and worried.

by the way, i'm 13 so it may just be hormones but still.

anyways, thanks girls!