i feel awkward and unattractive and rejected 😕

so i already kind of have been feeling like i've become somewhat less attractive to my boyfriend, weeks will go by before he wants to have sex and it used to be if we had the chance it was everyday, i understand as time goes on it just doesn't happen as much, but i'm talking like 4/5 weeks will go by before he touches me (and yes i've tried to be the initiator before and was turned down every time which made me feel even less attractive so i don't try anymore) but anyway my boyfriend suddenly was in the mood to do a little something something so he was fingering me and to return the favor i gave him a handjob and the whole time he just like wasn't paying attention to me he was watching the tv and suddenly he was just like "you can stop" and started pulling his pants up, and there has never been a time when he didn't finish whether it was me just giving him a handjob or oral or penetrative sex, he always finishes so i asked if he was sure and he kinda just nodded and i felt awkward and i mumbled "sorry" and he kinda just shrugged it off and now i feel awkward and stupid and ugly and i know he would tell me that i'm overthinking it but i don't know i just feel shitty now 😕

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we've been together for almost two years

no im not pregnant