Do men lie?

My boyfriend broke up with me.

we had sex one week ago, later on he avoided me for a week and he was a no show up to our dates. He said that he was depressed and he lied to me, he's a doctor. I was worried, so I went to his house to check on him, make sure he was ok. He was perfectly ok.

I'm depressed and I take medications. I tried to help him feel better, talking to him, telling him I understand him. He was sweet before we had sex, he even took me to the hospital when I got really sick at 2am in the morning. He presented me to his friends and some family members.

He said I can't do this anymore, and I asked him. If he was breaking up with me? And he said yes in the coldest way ever. Then he said I can't break up with you, because we had sex, I don't want you to believe that I just wanted that. That made me feel he just wanted that and I just told him:

-don't feel pity for me, it's ok. It happened. Don't be my boyfriend just because you feel guilty that I was drunk. I won't trash you. - he hugged me, but I was so disappointed, I just couldn't.

After that I wanted to call a taxi and he said no, I still like you. I still want to date you. I will take you home.

And I told him no, you just can't take back what you said. I'm not some sort of wifi available whenever you want to.

He took me home.

He tried hugging and kissing me. I avoided him

My therapist told me: some pains are worth it, some aren't. Like when you need an injection that pain is worth it , because it improves your health; but if somebody doesn't show that he cares, is because he doesn't. And that pain isn't worth it.

I told my ex not to worry because I wouldn't trash him, this is an anonymous post.

But I ask him have I ever trashed anyone or talked about my ex? And he said no.

I texted him because I wanted to make sure he was ok getting home, and told him it was the last text. Then he said no: no please don't, I want to keep texting you. And I told him: no, we can't be friends and he send a sad emoji.

I really wanted to insult him: and tell him: like if you care, you already got what you wanted: sex.

But I didn't say anything.

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I honestly don't know if he's being honest. It took me 5 years to date again, my ex boyfriend used to hit me and almost killed me.

I'm just disappointed that that this one took advantage of me when I was drunk and then just acted like this. I did a lot by worrying about him because he said he was depressed. He even lie about the medication he was taking.

I hope I'm not pregnant!! 🤰

I can take my antidepressants because they are very strong, and I have work in 4 hours, I just can't sleep. I respected him so much. And I feel so damaged and sad.

I guess love is not meant for everyone?

I'm 30, good bye to the dream of becoming a mother of a loving husband or a house full of love.

I wish I was never born. 😭😭😭 my father always told me, men just want you to fuck you whores, since we were 6 years old. Maybe he declared it and we are cursed. 😭😭

I will show everyone that I'm happy and move on, but my heart is broken.