HELP. Cried because sex was so good 😢💦😍 do I deserve this after an abusive relationship?

Okay so yesterday as I got out of the shower and walked into the bedroom my boyfriend started kissing me threw my towel away and laid me down onto the bed and eat my pussy for about 20 minutes.

After the amazing head, even more amazing penetrative sex followed in missionary and doggy style. 💦

He kept telling me how much he loves me and how perfect I was (he does this sometimes but never to this extent) and how he would never want another woman after meeting me. 😍

I came so hard and he told me how amazing I feel and he followed soon after into my mouth.

I wanted to get up and go pee but my thighs were shaking so hard I couldn't stand up so he picked me up and helped.💕

I was so overwhelmed and I still kind of had the afterglow of my mind blowing orgasm and I started thinking how I don't deserve this amazing man to love me so much and I started crying??? 😢

He asked what was wrong and why I was sad and I told him I wasn't crying because of sadness. It was because the orgasm was too intense and because I don't think I deserve him. He is so good to me and I can't help but compare other couples to us??? My best friend also has a super nice boyfriend but he never does stuff like my boyfriend to me (he buys me everything and even though he works a lot he always finds time for me and gives me massages, buys me sheet masks, runs me baths, tells me every day how much he loves me and how perfect I was and is genuinely NICE to me)

I haven't had a boyfriend since my first one who abused me physically and mentally. I was 16 when I broke up with him and now I'm 20. Haven't even thought about boys for a long time. Do I deserve this? Can I trust him? Why does he love me so much? PLEASE HELP ME UNDERSTAND

Thank you in advance💕