how long have you been single? share why and if you like being single or wish to be in a relationship.

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Well I'm married now lol. But when I was single, I enjoyed it. I enjoy being married to my best friend more though. 
I always had someone I was "talking" to or in a relationship with, so maybe I'm just that annoying I need attention type person lol. Daddy issues

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Almost 4 months, he cheated and lied to me. Thought I had a future with the coward.😂 i would like to get back out there but I'm afraid too.

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Always. 
I used to be an extroverted child, but then we moved to a big city and suddenly I was weird. I grew up to be an introverted adult (24years old now). As I hit puberty I also gained a lot of weight that I still can't get rid off. 
I guess I lost the ability to fall in love as I grew. 
My first kiss was with a stranger in a bar and it was really really hot. He wanted more and I almost wanted more as well, but I didn't want my first time to be with a stranger, so I said "no".
It wasn't until much later that I thought my friend was flirting with me and we ended up in bed (it was pretty awkward, to be honest). But he didn't want to date me and I realized I felt relieved as I wasn't in love with him either (I was afraid I would not be able to fall in love anyway). He said that in his mind I was already his friend and that's it. I'm pretty sure that the problem was my weight, though. He weren't that good friends so he didn't know much about me. But it's true that I looked like a boring lazy person (and to an extend I really was).
We've slept together until he finally found himself a girlfriend. 
It actually both helped and undermined my confidence. I learned a lot about myself and my own preferences in bed and in a man. I learned that I can attract a man, but also that my weight is really a nuisance. I also realized that I have to seek out new friends and hobbies to make my life better.
In my quest to make myself more interesting I found a kickboxing class and have been attending it for a year. It helped my confidence a lot. However I still weigh the same as I did a year ago (though I have much more muscle now), so the idea that I can't get a fit guy until I'm fit myself is still nagging me.
I think I recently met a guy I could fall in love with, but I don't know what to do. I'm also pretty sure it's one-sided. He's very fit and I'm not (though I'm actually fitter than my not-fat friends, it just isn't visible under the fat).
And I'll be in a different country for the next 5 months, so even if I managed to convince him that I'm not as boring and lazy as I look, there will be 6 hours of travel between us.
So one of my problems is that either what seems to be my type is pretty rare or that I really can't fall in love quickly enough. The other problem is that it seems to be even rarer for me to be someone else's type. I also don't know where to "go hunting" (I'm not a bar person).
I don't usually mind being single, but there are times when I would love to have someone to love. I'm also afraid that I'm getting too old for someone with so little experience.

how long have you been single? share why and if you like being single or wish to be in a relationship.

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