I've had genital herpes for about a year and a half now and have managed to work around it in my love life. I've never had a guy turn me down because of it and I've had sex with people who don't have it. But last night it finally happened; I got rejected. I know it's a given and it's just something I'm going to have to deal with, but it really actually hurt. We clicked and had a great night. He came back to my place and we fooled around a bit. He kept asking why we couldn't have sex when we were doing literally everything but. After hours, I finally told him. I've never told anyone in person before. It was terrifying. He was sweet about it, but holy awkward. You could just feel the awkwardness. He asked some questions as he started putting his clothes on and left. I didn't think it would bother me. I wasn't hoping for a relationship with him. I just wanted to be normal and have a hook up like I used to be able to do. So, needless to say, I had a major setback mentally last night. I thought I could handle my first rejection. I thought I was okay with having herpes. I wasn't ashamed like I used to be. But I was clearly wrong in thinking I could handle it and that it wasn't a big deal. I wish I could turn back time.