I have anxiety and depression that I've felt for as long as I can remember, that's simply caused by the lack of serotonin in my brain. I was diagnosed at 14 after telling my a family how suicidal I was,but I'm so glad I reached out for help. If I didn't I'm sure I'd be dead by now. I've been on a journey to find the right therapist and, medication I've gone through about 8 different ones by now. What I'm trying to say here is that I've been through hell but I could've never done it without help. I encourage all you you to reach out to someone for it. If you don't want to talk to someone you know personally they're free anonymous counselors you can call at (800) 273-TALK they are the most helpful people you could ever talk to and I owe my life to them. If anyone needed I'd be glad to talk to you to because I understand what you're going through. I still have my bad days, weeks, months and I may never fully "recover" but managing this takes a lot of time and self forgiveness. What I'm trying to say here is if I can do it so can you and you don't have to do it alone. Even if life feels like it isn't worth living for yourself currently they're people around who's lives would ruined by your loss. It's the depression that tells you different. If you can't live for yourself right now because you feel hopeless you have to live for them until you can. We will do great things, how strong we are proves that we can get through anything. (Thank you so much if you cared enough read until here)