In January my husband and I lost our first son, Mason, at 32 weeks. We found out later that I have a rare autoimmune disease that causes abnormal blood clotting which led to his death. Thankfully, blood thinners make it very unlikely that this would occur with future pregnancies but still birth is no picnic and it is something my husband and I will carry with us for the rest of our lives.

Tonight I got a positive pregnancy test! We weren't actively trying but weren't exactly preventing either. I'm so excited but I keep looking at the test thinking this can't be real! I'm so happy and so terrified of what could go wrong. I haven't told anyone yet, (not even my husband as I'm afraid of hurting him if something happens... I want to wait until we at least can verify a heartbeat) but I can't hold it in! 😊😊😊😊😊😊