my husbands very vanilla

lol, so my husband and i were talking last night nd i opened up to him after taking this test

well he saw it and was very indifferent avout it. he refused to take one said he would most likely just say no to every one. but when i see stuff on facebook or anytging else nd i see it as intregging and sexy hes like youd like me to do that to you? like confused... i love him to death knew what i was getting into when we got together but fuck he needs to loosen up and fuckin grow some balls lmao hes tried choking me but doesnt know how to yet he cokes me out till i turn blue but by acident. i dont like the lights on so its more so my fault lmao but for some reason i like the feeling so i dont tell him until i cant breath at all nd i really like pain during sex but its so hard to explain it to him. he thinks im meaning rough sex like extremely hard penetration like those girls in porn lmao nd dont get me started on that... i tried to show him a bdsm porn nd he wasnt ok with it... was wierded out... im a very jealous wife nd he is a jealous husnad as well so theres no way i could have someone ehlp me or show him cuz he wouldnt alow it. i let him control every aspect of my life. kinda stupid but i like to ve taken care of not having to do much ya know?? hes fully ok with that. its how he was raised but im a bit different then that. its hard to explain to him but i just dont judge him on it cuz hes very shy about sex he had only slept with 2 people before me like i said i knew what i was getting myself into.