Body hatred

Hey guys.

So recently I've noticed that I've made a little belly and I have been trying my hardest to get rid of it. But, some days I manage to eat so much food, I feel so shitty afterwards for doing it. I hate myself for it. At the moment when I'm writing this, I have so much hate for my body because I just ate a lot of junk food and happen to be feeling disgusting. But it's starting to happen everyday now, where I just pinch bits of fat and try to do something about it. It's annoying because I know I have fat, but I'm not doing anything about it. I want to but it's hard.

I don't know hot to feel tbh. I think I've started to feel so low about myself because people at school point out my flaws. This one guy tells me everyday something that's wrong with me and he says it's a joke but I don't know anymore, and everyone seems to be joking around all the time about things, but it hurts so much afterwards. I just wish my body was how it used to be and I looked like how I used to look.

I hate myself so much right now