So I have 2 rescued boxers. A male and a female, they were bred in a puppy mill and ended up having severe heartworms. we got them almost 3 years ago but it seems like we have had them wayyyy longer than that. Kayne is our white male and Roxie is a reverse brendal. Last week Kayne started acting off, he wasn't eating right, he was right up under my parents all the time and he was having tummy trouble... Momma took him to the vet and he had 2 liters of fluid on his abdomen and they found advanced stage cancer in him lungs and he also has heart failure... I know I've cried at least 4 hours already and the night we found out, I called my ex screaming and crying about it... He came over Saturday and I think I've fallen in love with him all over again... He doesn't know what heat this point wants but he has said that he loves me and we ended up making out before he left for a job interview! I'm so proud of him for getting a car and now likely getting a job, he has come so far since graduation. Y'all may think I'm crazy but seeing him interact with my dogs who bark at EVERYONE except for him, falling asleep on his chest, him comforting me... It all reminded me of when we were together and it felt like we were still together just in the way he looked at me... I miss that feeling... and now that I'm loosing the one thing that helped me when I lost my relationship... I feel like I'm loosing soooooo much more...