still maturing but making progress

i am slowly maturing. Before I got pregnant, I thought maturity was paying my own bills, having a job and having my own car. When I first found I was pregnant I was 23 yrs old. I still lived with my parents. I was working hard n eventually wanted to move out. I told my parents i was pregnant and moved in with my sister. i found out later that wasnt a smart or mature choice. My parents and I continued to fight and I just honestly complained about them to my sister. Last weekend, I decided it spend the weekend with my parents and see my dog. My heart open up. i seen that I didnt handle things in a mature way and that i really hurt my parents. i was to busy being scared n selfish n didnt see what i have done.

I told my sister that i was wrong and I needed to move back and make things better with my parents and that I missed them and made a mistake. i told her thank you for letting me stay with there for a little while but it was time for me to come home n stop running away from hard situations. She didnt take well to it. She pretty much showed her true colors and started yelling and causing fights. I told her 3 times in 8 weeks that i should come home make things right.

i have learn that even when you disagree with someone, sometimes u have to just listen to them to understand. my heart open and i feel much closer to my parents. I am trying to make things better with my boyfriend. Also, i started requesting information about colleges for the fall 2018. im due March 2018. I am going to push myself to have a degree and get a better job and be responsible and provide for my baby. Maturity is also how you handle things and situations. I want a good relationship with my parents and want to be a good mom my baby will be proud of. Still learning things but I will never run away from hard situations or give up. My baby is my motivation.