I want to be happy

It won't get better. I don't want to say this but my love for this guy is making my mind into a horrible state of mind. I don't want to overreact. I had him once. These things always happen to me. I'm always pushed always. All I want is to be happy. Please. I don't need any help. Why?

Why do these things always happen to me? I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY

PLEASE