Why are guys such dicks? 😔🙄

I hate dealing with boys. I'm only 18 and I hate them so much I just don't wanna have another relationship right now. Idk if I can give them another chance.

When I was 14, it was the first time that a guy made a move on me. I was one of the "nerdy" girls and he was one of the most attractive guys. Turns out he's an asshole and his friends made fun of me. Then when I ended things bcs he got controlling of how I should look he got super mad because it hurt his pride and hates me for years.

Then when I was 16 I met a very sweet guy who would treat me as a princess. We made out one day and I let him touch me but we didn't have sex. Next thing I know he told everyone we had sex and everyone sees me as a whore. His friends tease me and would message me dirty texts intentionally.

A few months ago I met this guy very sweet and charming everything the other two wasn't. I was head over heels with him and he lied to me. Apparently I was only his side chick. He's 20 and has a 16 year old gf. When I confronted him he didn't even feel sorry just said, "so you wanna end things?"

I hate them so much why are there no good guys out there? I feel so stupid. Am I the problem? I don't want to fall in love again. They killed my heart.

But now I'm gonna move to New Zealand so I'll leave them all behind. I hope I can get a fresh start. 😪