Doctors won't help

So we were TTC for about a year when I went to talk to a doctor. She told me she wouldn't give me clomid because I have had a home birth. I almost cried. So I ordered meds online after doing a lot of research. For some reason I thought it would be the magic ticket. I took clomid CD3-7 and an FSH injection on CD8, I was going to do 8-10, so three injections but I faked pain to get a scan in the ER and I had two mature eggs and 5 ones that were smaller and she didn't measure them (since that clearly wasn't the point of my visit and I was lucky that she measured any of them!) so I triggered the evening after that scan. And I took supplements to help with CM since clomid can dry you up as well as a prenatal. We DTD often... and I'm 12DPO today and still have negative tests. I'm just so sad. I wish the doctor would just help me! I don't know what my lining measured at because that wasn't the point of my scan so maybe that was an issue. I can't go fake pain for another scan every cycle! 😞 I don't want to go in blind either but now I have to.

Please don't lecture me on what I'm doing. I don't have another option and I 100% trust my med source.

I guess I'm just looking for hope. Cycle 1 on clomid and an inject was a bust but could it work next cycle?? I just feel like I'm doomed. I should just be happy with the kids I have but we really wanted one or two more and getting negative tests is just so disheartening..

RESPONSE TO COMMENTS:The next doctor that's not run by the same hospital (the one I went to wasn't the one I had prenatal care at when I had a home birth yet they still knew...) is 2 hours away one way. And I have never even heard of privet fertility clinics other then in huge cities. There definitely aren't any here. The OBGYNs do fertility treatments here and they refuse to help me because of my past home birth.