I hate putting him through this.

I know I’m depressed to an extent, and it seems that on my period it just plummets to and even darker place. We’ve been together for years and every month I get to a low point where I start arguments for no reason and I don’t even feel like he deserves to be with someone who can’t even hold it together mentally. He does everything he can but when these black holes come about it’s at times where I feel like he needs his space from me, but I need him the most. I sit in my basement and cry. I’ve already got him mad and now there’s no turning back, I just cry. I feel like he deserves someone more mentally stable, prettier, smaller, friendlier... All that, I just don’t feel like I make him fully happy in these moments. Like I can’t satisfy him. I can’t keep putting him through these emotional breakdowns.