Irritating

I gained 75 pounds my pregnancy. Went from a slim 145 to a thick 220. After birth I stayed at 192. I'm now 12 months pp and at 175. I'm trying my best to stay motivated but it's so hard when my SO is saying things like "why do you wanna look good? So other guys will look at you?" Like seriously! I've never been on the big side I've always been tiny (no hate) it's just not something I'm used too. He looks at other girls (slim, nice toned body) and literally drools over them and here I am trying to get back in shape to how I've always seen myself and how he met me and he's just being a hater. I'm doing it for myself, to get this "ugly, fat, ashamed, embarrassed to go in public" nonsense out of my head. I cry because I'm not how I used to look. I know things change after having a child I just took advantage of "eating for 2" and pregnancy weight to far. I'm trying my best to get healthy again.

Pre pregnancy 145

4 months pp 192

12 months pp 175