having a meltdown

Carson

I can't do this I'm so scared of loseing this boy like I lost my last one . Why can't they get him now.i woke up crying twice. I drank sprite at 2 in the morning to feel him move. how can I wait 4 week for him. I'm losing my mind. if I lost this boy i don't know what i would do. Sorry for all the grammatical errors I just don't care about my English skills right now# extremelydepressed