so broken need someone who gets it

had emergency surgery at 7 weeks. on Sunday just gone. not really cried or anything tried to block it out. but I can't and I wanna cry and scream. as soon as I feel down my partner moans.. I just can't be bothered any more I had a miscarriage 3 years ago now this? I suffer with depression can someone just talk to me. im 18 btw.