feeling low

so I've had a rough year... lost my daughter in may, husband broke is wrist in may, then I locked my knee in july, husband had a bad sprain ( doctors thought it was broken), I've stepped on a nail yesterday and today my husband got into a fender bender (everyone is ok), just feel that we are going in circles and not getting anywhere :( I'm trying to be excited I love fall, pumpkins, halloween. our 1 year anniversary is coming up and I really don't want to do anything but he does. we got married 10-30 ... our colors were red and black, but I just don't want to do anything lately either. we have been trying to get our rainbow baby and I'm stressing an out that and I'm not even pregnant yet. idk just had to vent I guess