Am I wrong.

So, my husband likes to drink, I personally don't like it, cause of what he's done and said in the past while intoxicated... i'm 22 weeks pregnant with a 18 month old from previous relationship.

So. My son does the standard visits with his dad. Every time we dont have my son, he drinks. I asked him for 1 sober night on the weekends we have together alone. I don't get that. I get to drive him around while he drinks, I take him to his friends who drink, to his moms who drinks as well. I asked him to eat with me Friday and he didn't. He ordered beer.. we haven't done anything together as a couple in a long time. Am I wrong, I ENVY couples I see out, having fun, going on dates. I envy girls who don't have to hear "i don't have fun with you". I envy girls who are enough. Enough to keep their husband happy and girls who's husbands have fun with them. I'm falling into depression. Slowly. I can feel it. All I do is eat, I know eating extra is good for the baby, but I don't want to make myself unhealthy cause i'm depressed and food calls my name. I don't have friends. I don't have family. I just need someone to tell me i'm not wrong for feeling depressed cause my husband needs alcohol to be happy and have fun around me. I'm giving up. I just want our old relationship back, I miss us. I just want to be good enough for him. I want to be fun. I try my best. I do. But i'm tired of fighting a loosing battle.