6 weeks and full of fear

About 2 weeks ago we found out we are pregnant with our 1st baby!!!!

Excitement and feeling over the moon quickly turned to fear ... so much fear that I’m starting to become depressed counting down the days until our first ultrasound on Oct. 17.

I did not think we were pregnant this time around. However, I promised I would share what I did differently if and when we did get pregnant ...

First off, I charted everyday with FMU. I used various apps but I also used ovulation test strips AND clear blue digital ovulation kit. After, 3 months I became more aware of my body and I felt actually twinges and pain the day I ovulated.

2nd, I took prenatal vitamins (Rainbow), Vitex, Fertilight, and liquid folate. My husband was also taking Fertilight for Men.

3rd, I masturbated if I did not have an orgasm after sex. I also used a pillow and laid down for at least 15 minutes.

4th, We had sex almost everyday during my fertile window.

5th, Prayed some

I definitely obsessed trying to do everything humanly possible to become pregnant. Now that we are I am SO scared something is going to happen to our baby. I hear and see so many heartbreaking stories ... fear has taken away my happiness and joy.

I am doing everything to try to be as healthy as possible. I’m working out, eating right, and educating myself as best as possible. My symptoms haven’t been awful but I do have pretty bad cramps, back pain, sore boobs, and now occasional brown discharge when I wipe ... is this normal?! Should I call my doctor?

Waiting is awful.

I’m just praying for a healthy and happy baby not for just me, but for all you amazing women in this community. Any kind words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated!