I'm pissed off, sad, confused... every emotion you could possibly think of! I don't understand. Why me? I want a baby more than anything... why did I lose my baby? I feel like I lost a part of my soul. I would be 5 months pregnant this month.. seeing other people who got pregnant around the same time as me, it just.. it just hurts. I'm at a lose for words.. I still can't grasp on to the fact that my baby is gone. My husband and I decided to start trying again a few months ago. I took a test today and it was negative. I got so mad and couldn't help but just sit here and cry. Im trying to stay hopeful but all the negative tests make it so hard. I just want my baby!