@ my worst point of life 😢

my relationship of almost 4 years has been destroyed right now due to my attitude am i wrong for worrying of the rent instead of havng sex with him. He hasn't been working alot and weve been renting a bedroom at my moms house we still owe her since the last two rents due to no work and i recently graduated MA and they're looking for females with 20 yrs + of experience or to be certified and I'm none so I'm looking elsewhere idk what to do...my lifes at its shittiest point and i feel like i might just loose control of myself idk who i am and what im doing on this earth with no job and no support