Mixed emotions!!!!

So I just had my 3rd baby. A little girl who is 8 months now. My husband and I have had a rocky last month. Well during my ovulation time (according to my apps) we had sex 2 time 2&3 days before the O. And one day after. I have been test for a week all day BFN. AF is suppose to be here tomorrow. On one side I'm relieved because I just had a baby and it's too soon to have another, we are at a rocky point right now, and finances aren't where I would like them to be. On the other side I am having baby fever, I miss the newborn stage, I want all my children to be close, my husband is such a good dad, my boys are amazing big brothers, and I'm one of those weird ladies that LOVES being pregnant. I don't know what to do! I don't know if I'm getting my hopes up and I'm not pregnant. Or if I'm just being hormonal and this phase will pass. Just at a loss. 😭