Stroke at 23 years old

I just have to do a little venting. I'm 23 and had a stroke last Monday. Turns out I have a hole in my heart that I was unaware of that a clot got through and it went to my brain. ( they suspect the clot was caused by birth control). So I was advised to not take it ever again. Now I'm just waiting to get in for surgery to fix the hole in my heart and trying to recover from the stroke which has left my left side weaker/ currently going to physical therapy. The thing that breaks my heart is that we're were wanting to start trying for our first baby and obviously we will have to wait now. Who knows how long until I get my strength back and fully recover.I mean I am very grateful that I'm recovering like I am but it really put a damper on our much wanted plans of starting our family. I know that the lord will send us a child when the time is right but sometimes I can't help but be saddened by having to push it back.