Help...

So ive been depressed for over a year now. And I recently got tested or whatever by a doctor and it turns out I have major depression, manic episodes, post traumatic stress disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder, panic attack and Inosmina....like holy cow I’m a mess....but my mom refuses to let me take any medications for these and I’ve been feeling really suicidal lately and have no motivation to honestly do anything anymore. And I know I’m loved and the effect it would have on people I just I can’t deal with this anymore and I literally just want to end it all....someone please helper