so my son is only 5 months old.

yesterday I was 5 days late. bought a cheap test to trick my body...usually this has worked and I spot and get period. well not this time. peed on the stick in middle of afternoon and it was positive...

today not spotting no sign of period at all....

slightly freaking out!!! alot. it's so soon. I'm not prepared at all for this.

I cant take birth control bc I have a blood clot disorder.

this is really unexpected. haven't told him yet either. things since baby born have been different btw us. hasn't been all that great.

I'm honestly scared to death of having babies so close. I read the complications of pregnancy and labor

bc of it.

and I can't abort either. bc I will not be able live with myself..

so I guess I'm just looking to vent and maybe get encouragement through this time...

thanks for reading