I AM TIRED and HURT!!!!

I can begin to know where to start with this chaos of a relationship! MY husband and I have been married since 2015 and to began his family flipped when he told them he was in love and was thinking of marrying a black woman. He was disowned by his mom's dad and his dad told him you just don't mingle it's not of God. He told his dad I'll never speak with you again if you can't except her. Well his family came to the wedding fast forward! Off and on his dad has been lending us funds to help with our business, how ever he told my husband he feels I don't trust him so he can help unless.they.meet alone without me listening. My husband agreed (1. I'm Mad) PHASE 2 is they couldn't stand his ex who they've been down to.parties for my 2 step daughters who we told him we have a party here for them.just.come to.it stop communications with her, who.by the way called me a nigga to.my face and I had to jump her! The thing is My husband jumps when this woman or his dad says so. She holds the kids over his head that if he don't give her.what she want he can't have them.on his weekend and because I tell him you ain't married to that cheating woman any more why you so quick to yes ma'am her. SO THIS MY FRIENDS HAS cause great problems with us. We TELL TALK ABOUT DIVORCE, HE told me I was selfish because he wants the kids so what ever he have to do to get them. LAST YEAR I told him I wanted a child with him he told me, NO, he has 2 girls with his ex and he don't want any he loves them

Well I had my tubes reversal this.year and he was MAD!!!! Told me I was to old for kids and he didn't want them and that I was deceitful. MIND YOU HE TOOK ME TO the surgery and spoke to the doctor etc. Later he tells me it would not hurt to have maybe one! O.K. REALLY! He gets angery throws stuff later apologies and my 10yr old lives with us sees him doing this stuff off and on. His kids never do, because they live 1 1/2 he away here only 2wkends out of a mth and every other week in the summer. I can go on and on! Then I read his text messages to his ex say it'll get better and I hope you feel better. That crap because she claims her husband will not give her anything for the kids and she was sick..... I feel I'm the enemy here. If the income was not just coming in from him I would leave! I feel I would if I could support myself. It's a lot going on he thinks I'm trying to come between him and the kids aged 8 and 6. Wasn't for.me they wouldn't have any manners or the 6yr old wasn't potty trained until last summer when her cause they deemed it normal to be acting babyish at 6. NO MA'AM! The mom bashed me on Facebook and he call his self defending me only to be called by an old.couple he use to go to church with and told him to remove his comments he did!... He and his dad sent his ex a 1000 dollars behind my back so he could get the.kids this weekend. Only to bring them here and he plays with them a second than of course I do what I do best and mother them. He gets them her runs off.make.plans leaves.out.my girl while he.takes them out with.out a word. Next he takes them to the park don't invite my girl. He is so look childish GOD I WISH I HAD CAUGHT THIS STUFF DURING DATING! ⁉⁉Should I be mad he is doing everything to get kids and he talks our house whole business to how much he makes to his stupid dad! TOLD ME " That's my dad, you aren't going to come between us🛇🚫🛇HUH! WHAT WAS THAT CRAP WHEN WE WERE DATING????. I GOTTA FIGURE SOMETHING OUT